In this entire two years I've lived with nothing to be memorized. I don't say my surrounding is bad. It's good, though. I'm surrounded with smiles and laughter of them and automatically I will smile too. It's too late to realize they were just fake. I mean they in here refers to my smile and laughter. So now I really am trying to recreate my should-be-life. I can't live with fake emotions. It's really tiring and I get nothing. I'm just doing my routines as a normal-girl but my soul can't feel this life. In the name of Allah, Ninis' new life begins!